'How He Loved You' by Martin Day
Trudy: Daddy loved his baby girl, rushing home from work to see you.
He would phone from the train just to hear you laugh and gurgle.
He would stop important meetings just to get away
"For a date with a lovely lady", is what he would say.
He would buy you little toys, just to see your face delighted.
It was hard for me to tell if you or he were more excited.
He'd throw you up and catch you and kiss you on the face.
He'd swing you and he'd spin you safe in his embrace.
And how he loved you, loved you,
Held you to the sky.
And he hugged you, as if hugging himself too.
No word of a lie.
Daddy doted on your mum, bought her flowers every week day,
Took her dancing on a whim to be seen out with her, he'd say,
"Let them all be jealous, when they see her on my arm."
"If Mandy was any hotter she set off an alarm."
When he found out you'd be born he was more than just delighted.
Threw a party, hired hall, with everyone invited.
He said, all he'd ever wanted was right there in his wife,
A mother and a her baby, two beauties in his life.
Amanda: He was attentive at the start, like I was his possession,
Taking charge and making rules, and punishing transgression.
The perfect loving couple was all that we appeared.
He showed me what was wrong with me and he was what I feared.
There was drinking, that was true, but sure no celebration.
His reaction to your life was go for termination.
He hated children anyway, I think he hated me.
I tried to protect us both from his brutality.
And how he beat me, when he
knew you would be born.
And when he saw you, he looked right through you,
Turned away in scorn.
© M Day 16-Oct-2006